13-19-25

I've been reading through some of my earlier posts and I must admit that they seemed to be a tad emotional to say the least.

I was about 19 years old when I wrote my first entry but even before I had always been an introspective kid, somehow aware that theres always something behind what is seen. That theres a world in each of us, unspoken and unseen, that nobody can enter but us and hopefuly also by God. Where our thoughts, emotions and dreams are only known to Us.

What if we can open this world, expand it to intersect with the worlds of those around us? Where thoughts are known, emotions are shared and dreams are seen. Where it is not as another's separate posession, where it is suseptible to judgement, but a part of your shared world?

I remember one of the concepts in Paulo Coelho's book the Valkyries where the main character was being thought by a much younger man how to expand his world by looking into the horizon. The young mentor explained that each of us live in a world with a range of about 15 meeters, where everything in this radius can affect us directly by interaction and in effect impact and change our world. By this virtue, they are included in our world. Everything outside this perimeter of interaction is just set as our background.

I know I may not be making any sense and maybe over thinking simple things, but I guess thats really up to us. Making sense of things I mean.

As I look now on my thoughts and general outlook in life, I can't say that I've changed and am a different person now. I think I'm still that same little kid who grew up to be the 19 year old who wrote those first blogs who is now the 25 year old showing distinction around the edges here and there (and by distinction I mean wrinkles and the like).

I'm not making any sense huh? hahahaha ^_^